Fears

Last night I got home and went to the bathroom. As I was on the potty, I noticed a big, black spider on the side of the bathtub. I decided not to wake up my dad because at the time, it was unnecessary, so I closed the door and wrote a note that said, "spider in the bathroom." Turns out, the spider has now disappeared and is probably lingering somewhere in the house. I'm supposed to meet my cousin for lunch today, however, the fact that the spider may still be in the bathroom makes me nervous about taking a shower, which leads me to the topic of fear. How much do you let fear take over your life before you start making a change? How often do you let fear control your every move? I know I need to take a shower, but I keep thinking about the worst case scenario: spider bites me in the shower and I can't see it because I'm blind without my glasses. Being fearful of everything is not okay, and I feel as if I am in a constant state of fear. In the car I get scared, at night I get scared, seeing spiders crawling and I get scared. What is it exactly that causes this fear? Personal experiences, stories that are told, and it being passed on I suppose, but living in this type of atmosphere is not going to make me the person I want to be. Michael Jackson's Man in the Mirror has begun to play in my head. "Gonna make a change for once in my life..." Time to jump in the shower and face the enemy!