"Nobody puts baby in the corner"

Today I went to watch "Dirty Dancing" in Union Square for film night in the park. It was my first time watching the movie (I know...I've been deprived) and the first time I've participated in this type of event. I had so much fun and definitely recommend all of you to check it out. It'll give you a sense of what it feels like to really be a San Franciscan, meaning we're cool and like to have a good time. One thing I do suggest is to bring a cushion for your behind. The cement is not fun to sit on for two hours.

I wish I took pictures, but I didn't want to bring my bulky camera around. This movie has inspired me to take dance lessons! Say goodbye to my peace signs and scuba diving moves and hello to coordination!

Here's what the rest of the 2010 schedule looks like for SF:

Saturday Aug. 7 - Ferris Bueller's Day off in Dolores Park - 8 p.m.
Saturday Aug. 28 - Rear Window in Union Square - 8 p.m.
Saturday Sept. 11 - Amelie in Washington Square Park - 8 p.m.
Saturday Sept. 25 - The Big Lebowsky in Dolores Park - 8 p.m.

Happiness

Despite the hardships I have been through the whole month of June, I am happy to say that things are starting to feel normal again. When I say the word "normal" I mean I feel happy, motivated, and rejuvenated. I'm doing things that make me excited and it's a wonderful feeling. It hasn't been easy. There are times when I want to breakdown again, but I know I'm at a better place than I was before, so my brain rewires to focus on the future and the goodness that is in store. 

Switching gears now.


We all know that a person should not be the basis of one's happiness, however, after a breakup, it's hard to be happy because all you're used to is having that somebody around. That individual WAS your happiness, so after everything is said and done, it's hard not to sulk and pity yourself for feeling the way you do.


It's easy to go back and think of what the hell went wrong in a relationship or to pick your brain and try to find answers on why your significant other is a completely different person from who you fell in love with, but the fact is, you can't change what happened. If somebody doesn't want to be with you, it's his/her loss. There isn't any point in making yourself feel worse, so let it go and find somebody who fits your needs and shares the compassion you have for life and love. 

I've somehow found the strength to let go of the past and free myself from what I held onto for so long. What I tried to somehow fix, but was already broken. It took a lot of self-assurance and constant reminders that everything would be okay, but what I really want to touch on is that without good, genuine people, I would not have moved on this easily. 

I have such great friends and family who care about my happiness. They gave me the attention I needed when I felt lonely to which I am extremely grateful for. They pulled me out of my house when I needed it, brought me out to socialize, but most importantly, they filled that emptiness. 

It isn't about what you lose, but about who is there when you're at your darkest point. If you've ever been in a situation where you're just down in the dumps feeling like shit, please be thankful to those who have lent a helping hand. These people don't come often and we must hold onto friends who genuinely care. 

Now, I know I just went on a rant about how somebody cannot be the basis of your happiness, but there has been one particular person that has reminded me that life doesn't stop here. So, to whom it may concern: thank you for chatting with me in the wee hours of the morning, for cracking jokes, for being sincere and caring about my feelings, for challenging me and getting me think about life in a new perspective, and most importantly, for acknowledging my strengths and making me feel like I can do anything I strive for.